突然好想你 (五月天)
最怕空气突然安静


最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息



想念如果会有声音

不愿那是悲伤的哭泣

事到如今终於让自已属於我自已

只剩眼泪还骗不过自己



突然好想你你会在哪里

过的快乐或委屈

突然好想你突然锋利的回忆

突然模糊的眼睛



我们像一首最美丽的歌曲

变成两部悲伤的电影

为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行

然后留下最痛的纪念品



我们那麽甜那麽美那麽相信

那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经

为何我们还是要奔向

各自的幸福和遗憾中老去



突然好想你你会在哪里

过的快乐或委屈

突然好想你突然锋利的回忆

突然模糊的眼睛



最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决定自己过

没有你却又突然听到你的消息

 
 
Feels emo, listening to this song.

time and time again
I told many people that I had been through it already, over that emotional period. but time and time again, why do i still feel that void in me? it makes me just wanna cry my heart out.

If you were to ask me if I am happy with  my situation right now?

I would normally say I am happy, or at least I appeared cheerful on the outside. But the simple fact is that I am not done with the emo attacks. Just not yet... At least, I can still cry.

If you were to ask me whether do I hate you for walking out of the relationship?

What kind of answer do you want to hear, really? No, I am okay le. You did nothing wrongly, but rather what you had to do. I do not know what you are trying to achieve by asking me this question? Does it feels better hearing that I don't hate you for what you did to us?

It just feels that you are toying with me, trying to lessen you guilt there. This feels like salt in the wound and it hurts like hell. You already did what you had done to me, why still ask me whether does it hurt? Why? Its not like anything is going to happen anyway.

If you were to ask me whether I should be angry wih you, after all that I had done for you? I was angry, but not anymore. There is a saying, everyone is equal, no one else is better, just how you get along with the other person. I think you will understand this in the future.

If you had seen me crying, I know you would understand everything.


I cant say that I am happy right now, because I am not.
I cant say that I am happy that you left, because I was angry.
I cant say that I am happy about you being with him, because I care.
I cant say that I did nothing wrong, because I did nothing.
I cant say that you did wrong, because you had to.
I cant say that I am okay when people praises you and him, because I am only human.


ps. I just hope that you are happy with your decision. At least I know that you are. Congrats.

Diana 35mm Back, Film retriever and Red-scale films

having 2nd take
after much considerations, i have decide to switch to playing leftie floorball. playing the right way for the 1st time. =)

but everything would be back to zero. back to basic.

its not too late to start planning for the future, right?
with all the time on hand, i should spend more time thinking now.



starting from scratch again.