分手需要练习的 =)
A-Lin(黄丽玲) - 分手需要练习的


作词:何启弘 作曲:施佳阳


谈起关于你的话题 终于可以不用缺席

甚至还 表现得不再关心

从前你是伤的痕迹 现在不过是场回忆

忽远 忽近


我怕的是低潮来袭 这城市哪里够隐密

藏住我 突然想哭的情绪

宁愿失去斗志勇气 好过和你冷战推挤

这样 谁输得起


原来分手是需要练习的

等时间久了会变勇敢的

你慢慢出走 我渐渐放手

这不就是我们要的自由


原来分手是需要练习的

等伤口好了会变轻松的

海阔天空 不残留一点痛

回头看 怕懦弱 往前走 怕坠落

但我一定能学会

在想你的时候 不难过


我怕的是低潮来袭 这城市哪里够隐密

藏住我 突然想哭的情绪

宁愿失去斗志勇气 好过和你冷战推挤

这样 谁输得起




原来分手是需要练习的

等时间久了会变勇敢的

你慢慢出走 我渐渐放手

这不就是我们要的自由




原来分手是需要练习的

等伤口好了会变轻松的

海阔天空 不残留一点痛

回头看 怕懦弱 往前走 怕坠落

但我一定能学会

在想你的时候 不难过




原来分手是需要练习的

等伤口好了会变轻松的

海阔天空 不残留一点痛

回头看 怕懦弱 往前走 怕坠落

但我一定能学会

在想你的时候 不难过

550 days of summer
watched that movie before?























its just as abrupt as it is.

life goes on.

黄小琥 - 没那么简单
没那麽简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴


尤其是在 看过了那麽多的背叛

总是不安 只好强悍

谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那麽简单 就能去爱 别的全不看

变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半

不爱孤单 一久也习惯

不用担心谁 也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西

感觉累了就放空自己

别人说的话 随便听一听 自己作决定

不想拥有太多情绪

一杯红酒配电影

在周末晚上 关上了手机 舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那麽容易 每个人有他的脾气

过了爱作梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静

幸福没有那麽容易 才会特别让人著迷

什麽都不懂的年纪

曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经

想念最伤心 但却最动心 的记忆

sometimes.. i wonder
sometimes i wonder..

should i be doing the things that i usually do for her?

they seem to lost their meaning already.

but time and time again, i am still doing her favours..

sometimes i wonder..

i am beginning to see the light. gradually.

I will always love you (Whitney Houston)
If I should stay

I would only be in your way

So I'll go

But I know

I'll think of you every step of

the way



And I...

Will always

Love you, oohh

Will always

Love you

You

My darling you

Mmm-mm



Bittersweet

Memories

That is all I'm taking with me

So good-bye

Please don't cry

We both know I'm not what you

You need



And I...

Will always love you

I...

Will always love you

You, ooh



I hope

life treats you kind

And I hope

you have all you've dreamed of

And I wish you joy

and happiness

But above all this

I wish you love



And I...

Will always love you

I...

Will always love you

[Repeat]



I, I will always love

You....

You

Darling I love you

I'll always

I'll always

Love

You..

Oooh

Ooohhh

its time to move on
Apologies to all those who are going to read this entry. the parts are not coherent. points are repeated. i know its messy, but this reflects my state of mind right now. bear with me.


Everything seems to be wrong on my parts..

I don't understand why can a couple see each other for like 7 days a week, can still find time to go out frequent enough to satisfy each other needs for quality time?

Reasons? I can give a dozen of them... but they all just don't see my point. its not as if i didn't try to bring her out, time doesn't permit me or her to.

i felt its really like a pity. a wasted effort.

seeing her struggle with her work, I spent substantial amount of time and effort to accompany her and teach her in her studies.. so much so that I gave away alot of my own personal time to coach her.. as such, I see her close to 7 days a week. You see, people blame me for not bringing her out, not spending quality time with her.. but they don't understand what the situation i am in. i almost broke down during the times that i had to mentor her work progress.. its a chore to me.. week after week, quizzies, reports, dances and projects.. she don't have time for me. seeing her 7 times a week, makes me think that i don't need to spend extra time to bring her out.. (This isn't a good reason though). But you tell me, it not like i didn't put in effort in asking her out, it like we don't have time for each other.. everything is about studies.

conclusion, studies isn't everything in her life. she wanted fun and pleasure in her life, something that i can't give right now.

i hate how things go on right now.

oh wells, we ain't exactly in a relationship to begin with. it was complicated but not anymore.

I don't blame her for not wanting this relationship, i didn't played my part and i should respect her decision.
deep down, i do feel a little bit of a pity.. that things turns out like this. its like i tried my best and my effort goes unrecognised. it was care that was shown in another form, but apparently its not valid in her point of view. ultimately, i cant give her what she wants and i wouldn't have any reasons to keep her by my side.

it seems like I dun have time for her and vice verse.

it may seems that i am wrong, not fulfilling my role reponsibilities..

I hope that my choice in exiting this complicated relationship is doing her good. this is the only thing i can give her.. i feel bad that i didn't do the right things.. i should take a step back and let things flow naturally.

i dont have time, she cant wait. we cant be together.
its all about timing.


i won't be surprise that she get attached faster than i would think. well, i can only wish her all the best and we should stay as good friends. my exit from this complicated relationship will only officialise her to move on, explore the hidden opportunities in life.


bottomline, she is tired. no point harping on this failed relationship, she didn't want it anymore.

I am tired. i am hurt, but not yet broken. twice in the same spot. twice in the row. its going to hurt even more as time goes on. *warning*: salted content in close approximity!!

i am sorry to say that we both are selfish in some ways.

somebody saves me.

it has been a long journey
was it 4 years already? hmm.. this sounded really long. its been 4 years since i started playing floorball in year one. thinking of it, if it wasn't for alan, i wouldn't have thought of joining floorball in the first place. for that, i would like to thank him. =)

i started out as newbie to the game, no rules, no skill, no team. just a ordinary member in the club, who is keen to pick up the sport. the good thing is, i wasn't alone in this situation. there are many others like me, who made in through the selections. we wasn't part of a team, there wasn't one to begin with. its was just a club and we had to start from the basics. fortunately, there was this captain by the name of senthil, who should be credited for spending the effort to teach us the basics.

6 months into playing the sports, we think we are ready but there isn't any slot for us to fit in the team. perhaps we are just too weak to begin with. =.( the skill level gap between us and huricanes were too wide and there were too many players, enough to form a team on our own. there is just no one to lead us. No team, no game, no experience. we even almost resorted into playing for other clubs just to get the experiences.

then came the coach, louise. =) she came in to help us, to nurture us into a lean fighting machine. WAR machines. haha. this was the time, when blizzards was born. we worked hard, training twice a day, burning those saturday afternoon, hoping to be in time to be in tip top condition during the season. first game.. hhmm. i dun remember the scores, but i think we won. it wasn't long before we got our first defeat. saddened.

but we din give up because we had the support of the coach. spper coach. verbal abuse was the key to get us back on our feets. haha. i remembered from the side line, she would be there standing with one leg on the boards, her hands gesturing in the air and her machine gun, spraying over the courts. hahaha.

we didn't make it through in the first league. we had another shot.. with more firepower. the goals are coming in and we got through, from div 3 to 2 to 1. the 1 is still not official yet. it been a long journey.. we lost many good players, but also gained many. but the biggest loss was made known recently, louise is going off to carry on her new agenda in life. sad for the fact she is leaving, but happy for her new phase in life. jiayou and have a baby soon. =)

Man, i am so going to miss those good old time..


p.s. I am glad that we were all part of one big family, the floorball community in the past, in the present and in the future. we were always be, in our minds and in our hearts.